Title: Better This Way
Summary: Uchi is allowed back to Kanjani8, but someone else isn’t as lucky.
Rating: G /Angst
Setting: 2008 - Uchi is back!!!
JE Boys © Johnny-san
Plot © mysticwater/Kristy
(yesm got into a writing mode at work)
Still there are times when he crosses Uchi's mind, usually with the smallest of reminders.
Nights are always the worse, just before he sleeps. Even though this was everything he ever wanted. Even though sharing a room with Ryo again is possibly the best thing that’s ever happened to him. Even though Johnny allowed him to return to Kanjani8 under strict supervision for the first 5 months, (but honestly Uchi was okay with that.)
Despite all this, reality hits him hard; too late dose he realize he should brace himself. It feels like the breath is pushed from his lungs; briefly there is a sharp pain and brimming tears. His chest burns hot and then cold and then, there is nothing.
He feels hallow and empty and Uchi realizes he's still lost without him. Still and always... because he was Uchi’s one and only constant support who felt the burn of the scandal as well, and he wasn't allowed back. He was given two options; one of starting over from the beginning and hoping for another break (only Johnny would know how many months or years that would be). Or he was given the option of leaving Johnny's all together.
And despite Uchi begging him to stay in the company... Kusano leaves.
And now he's lost, and feels more alone than he has in years. Was he really expected to be happy to be back with Kanjani8? Happy, when it was his mistake to begin with, and the person who was wrongly accused is punished to the point of no return?
He felt his heart tearing from the inside out at the thought.
Suddenly his cell vibrates on his night stand. Not wanting to wake Ryo, he takes the call on the balcony.
"It's not your fault you know." Hearing the familiar and welcomed voice, pushes a wave of emotions to the surface. Yet he wont bring himself to speak in fear of his voice cracking with tears. He can almost hear Kusano smile on the other end. "Ryo-chan was right. You are a baby." He laughs quietly before he continues. "Ryo-chan just texted me, told me your beating yourself up over it."
Uchi shot a glance back into the room, and sure enough Ryo was sitting up in bed, looking worried but still he managed to look smug about it. If he wasn’t busy trying to control his tears he would have glared at Ryo for worrying Kusano.
"Come back." Uchi said after gathering his emotions slightly.
"And give up my solo career?" Kusano must have been grinning now. "I wanted it to be a surprise. But I'm debuting next week. I figured you should be the first to know, especially with things are the way they are." There was a pause and Kusano's voice softened. "It's better this way." And Uchi knew Kusano wanted to come back to Johnny’s, come back to him despite everything, but they both knew Kusano was right.
"I'm sorry..." His voice was cracking again, but Uchi didn't care as he clutched the phone tightly, as if Kusano could feel how much he wanted to hold him by how tightly he grasped the phone.
"I miss you too." Kusano chuckled gently. "I'll see you soon. I promise." Silent tears streamed down his cheeks as Uchi tried to concentrate on he ex-bandmates’ voice. "Get some sleep Uchi. Ryo-chan and Eito are getting really worried about you lately. Be happy, ne. It's better this way." Kusano sighed hearing Uchi sniffles on the other end. "Don't forget to call to congratulate me next week! Good night."
Uchi lowered the phone slowly, still clenching it tightly. "It's better this way."
this is slowly becoming my new fav couple XD;;
lets hope it wont come to this next year ne!!
bring back our HIROS!!! i miss these two :(
x-posted at jent_fanfics